Ah Bugger

The vapid utterings of a neurotic mind.

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Friday, April 18, 2008

She's here!

Yesterday we had a baby! For me it was absolutely painless.
Today we are trekking to the hospital to lay eyes on our newcomer and hugs on her mom and dad. You know, I think pregnancy takes 40 weeks (or in this case 37) so that you have time to get used to the idea that a brand new person is going to be fully in there as a part of your life! It is so cool and yet strange to think that my friends are parents. I have a hard time with this. My niece is almost 17 and I still have not been able to wrap my brain around the realities that my sister is a mom.
Welcome, beautiful sports chiclette. You have the greatest parents in the world. (And not too shabby parental friends...).

Other welcoming announcements: here and here

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

The way

I need to do something. I just don’t know what or how. I had an idea to take a road trip across the States, but if I were to do that I would like to go for a month or so to really get to see things. How do I do that and keep my job?

I feel like I would like to go help out someplace, like in a New Orleans school. I feel like I need to give something back, to do something that would be beneficial for our country but I do not know how to go about doing it.

Maybe my intentions are not quite so noble. It could be that I just need to get a change of scenery to change the way I see things, the way I deal with things, and the way my life is headed. Not to say that any of those ways are bad, I just feel stuck and I have felt stuck for so long that I am getting to the point where I will either just resign myself to it, or chew my feet off.
I have been in Washington, DC too long. By that I mean that I have become so very myopic. I can’t see past the way we do things here, the way we see things. It confounds me that people life differently, think differently, act differently than we do. I need to witness it, interact with it in order to get a better understanding of what this world is all about.

I have a couple of ideas, but they seem to each have a snag. The Peace Corps wants a two year commitment (I am a bit of a commitment-phobe). The volunteer programs want you to donate and pay your own way. However, if I am volunteering, I am not bringing in income and to have to pay is a double loss of funds which I am not prepared for.

I know that I could fulfill my philanthropic desires by volunteering on weekends with Habitat for Humanity, or March of Dimes, but a weekend mission is not what I need. I need to be removed from my current situation and placed into another in order to truly learn, truly experience the differences this world is comprised of.

Who would have a thought this would be so difficult?